IPs visited me this weekend, it was fantastic to share our excitement and happiness at the news together at last and we had a lovely time.
We went over the agreement, to double check we had everything correct and covered, my husband and I went out to dinner with them both - good food and great company and I also gave them the paperwork from my midwife booking pack which I think made it all the more real for them! I gave them one of my digital tests and also a FRER from a day ago - hey, you may be thinking that that's gross but I was nice enough to remove the absorbent end I had dipped! And I did another fresh one for them so they could watch those 2 lines appearing in real time, it was simply wonderful watching them huddled around the test, we all had a bit of a moment right then I think.
I do think it's very important for them to be involved in every single way and they know that anything I can do, I will, to help make them feel like equals in this journey and also so that they don't miss out on a thing just because we aren't a normal couple having a baby.
We also moved onto talking about who we needed to tell and when. Now this is always a bit controversial, you have those who say you shouldn't jinx anything and should wait until the crucial 1st trimester is over safely before you tell anyone and there are those who say that it doesn't matter and celebrating the occasion is important, no matter how early you are. I want to be in the first camp but actually, I'm in the second, mainly because it's hard to keep these things a secret and because I want to tell the world and so why not right now?
Once IPs had left for home, I returned home and decided to tell my mother. Now, my mother has known since the day I first placed a thread expressing my interest in becoming a surrogate about my intentions and she's seen me through the ups and downs of the journey so far so it shouldn't of been much of a shock but it was. I don't think anyone thinks past the ttc stage, they don't actually believe (and not when it just went on and on, cycle after cycle) you will fall pregnant so when you announce it, it's going to be a bit of a shock. My mum is of course concerned for me first and foremost and she has questions but she knows that I've wanted to do this for a long time and that it's not something I'm taking lightly. She's still talking to me and tells me that she still loves me so I think we're going to be alright and I won't be written out of the will!
My husband surprised the heck out of me when we visited his mum and brother today and he told them, just like that and they equally surprised me by just making a joke and being totally fine with it all. I admit that they probably don't fully understand the entire surrogacy thing but obviously know enough to know I will be carrying a baby that I will ultimately hand over to other people and yet were still fine with it.
I still have yet to tell the rest of my family but that's not because I won't but just because I have yet to have the opportunity. We are very close though so it is important to me that I do that as soon as I can. It is important to me that they don't feel like they were excluded from the news.
My IPs have told one set of parents, who are delighted for us but not the other set as yet and it's something that my IPs are a bit anxious about. I wish that everyone had only happy faces and were as joyous as us but I'm not naive enough to expect that, I know that people will frown on what we've done and that people will see it as buying/selling a baby but I can hopefully educate them a little and maybe even change a few minds - even if I can't, I am not allowing anyone to ruin this experience that I've waited so long for. 'Fear always springs from ignorance' - said Ralph Waldo Emerson and it's very true.
I am so proud of what we've all achieved together, so many times we felt like giving up but we perservered and it's paid off - I want to shout it from the rooftops!
Sunday 29 April 2012
Saturday 28 April 2012
Successful Chart
Incase anyone is interested, here is my BBT chart for last cycle. You can totally see why FF was confused about which date I ovulated, it's like the Rocky Mountains for a while there!
Friday 27 April 2012
Blood Results Are In
My hCG on Wednesday was 144 and 2 days later it's now 424 so it has more than doubled and that indicates a healthy, progressing pregnancy. Phew! My progesterone is an impressive 100 and the midwife told me that they like it to be over 20 at this point in a healthy pregnancy. My blood tests almost (but not completely) rule out scary reasons for my pain - such as ectopic, so that's great and definitely reassuring.
The clinic have booked me in for an early scan when nearly 7 weeks, hopefully we will see all the necessary parts, such as the heartbeat, so we can relax a little more.
I'm already detached from the pregnancy which is weird but I'm pleased about it, I'm in surrogacy mode and it feels natural to be in this mind frame and almost like the time I've waited to get to this stage has given me the necessary space to explore my feelings already and be OK with them. Of course I'm ecstatic that I'm pregnant but it's a different kind of happiness than with my own children, hard to explain but it makes me feel peaceful and content.
Physically I'm feeling OK, which is to be expected at such an early stage because I'm only 4 weeks and 2 days but I'm exhausted all the time and the nausea suddenly strikes out of nowhere, I also have little appetite which is not something I'm complaining about! I am sure that things won't always be so calm on the symptom front but I'll deal with it as it happens.
It is really strange to be in this situation, I have times where it just catches me like a thunderbolt, that I am pregnant, really really pregnant!
The clinic have booked me in for an early scan when nearly 7 weeks, hopefully we will see all the necessary parts, such as the heartbeat, so we can relax a little more.
I'm already detached from the pregnancy which is weird but I'm pleased about it, I'm in surrogacy mode and it feels natural to be in this mind frame and almost like the time I've waited to get to this stage has given me the necessary space to explore my feelings already and be OK with them. Of course I'm ecstatic that I'm pregnant but it's a different kind of happiness than with my own children, hard to explain but it makes me feel peaceful and content.
Physically I'm feeling OK, which is to be expected at such an early stage because I'm only 4 weeks and 2 days but I'm exhausted all the time and the nausea suddenly strikes out of nowhere, I also have little appetite which is not something I'm complaining about! I am sure that things won't always be so calm on the symptom front but I'll deal with it as it happens.
It is really strange to be in this situation, I have times where it just catches me like a thunderbolt, that I am pregnant, really really pregnant!
Wednesday 25 April 2012
It's A Long Post But Worth It, I Promise!
I've been a bad blogger yet again and been absent for far too long but I have been so busy that I've not had a chance to get online to write a post but here I am!
So, I did get my P4 result and it was an impressive 48 - we were thrilled, what an excellent level, compared to my usual 30 ish and made taking the horrible 150mgs of Clomid this cycle, worth it.
FF kept with its interpretation of my ovulation date, I continued to disagree with it and would stare at my chart several times a day trying to see why my date was more accurate than theirs and in the end, I figured that it didn't really matter which day was actually correct, it didn't change that we were finished with insems and were in the 2ww so I really shouldn't stress it. What I really ended up doing was manually over-riding the ovulation day on my chart, which seemed to make me feel happier when I looked at it! I don't recommend (nor does FF) doing this to your chart, unless you are familiar with your body and cycles and can be sure that you're right, you're best off sticking with what the software makes of your temps.
As I said, I've been really busy but was feeling awful towards the end of last week - palpitations, dizziness, boiling hot, exhausted, insomnia, heartburn, nauseous and I kept having headache after headache. I figured I was just really worn down. I continued to check my cervical position, just out of interest, I don't chart it in the 2ww any longer but I did note that it was really far back and either high or medium which isn't really anything to worry about but I felt that it was unusual for me. I also continued to use my IC OPKs during the 2ww, it gave me something to pee on for fun and for the most part, they were nearly blank but then towards the end of the 2ww, they darkened considerably - not positive type dark, but still darker than they had been. Now, I know from research and from my own previous experience that it means nothing. There is talk around the internet that a near + or + OPK can sometimes indicate early pregnancy but for everyone who says that is the case, there is another that says it didn't work like that for them so yes, I took it with a pinch of salt.
I also had some pregnancy tests left over from last cycle and I did my usual 'shall I test? No, I really shouldn't' inner conflict thing but I tested to be rid of the dreaded blue dye tests I had. I was either 7 or 9dpo so too early to see anything but I used it anyway. As usual, I thought I saw something but then it faded to pretty much nothing so I thought it was obviously just an evap but something made me keep going back to it - it's Clearblue +/- type pregnancy test and I swore I could see a really faint, but very thin, blue line making it a + sign. Now, I've had this before with these tests and I know that to be considered +, the line has to be as thick as the - line and this absolutely wasn't so I photographed it (to follow) as usual and binned it.
A couple of days passed and I had already told myself before the run in with the Clearblue test, that I wouldn't test until at least 11dpo because it's pretty much given you won't reliably get any + before then. And remember that I wasn't even sure if I would be 11dpo or 9, with my ambiguous ovulation date but on 11dpo (my calculated o date), I decided that I would take the other CB test because if by some miracle, that line I had thought I'd seen, had been a very early positive, the line should theoretically be darker 2 days later.
I POAS and watched, btw every cycle I swear I won't watch the test develop but will put my phone stop-clock on and go back once the 10 minutes or whatever testing time is up but I can never do it, I have to torture myself by watching the stark-white negative appear. But this time, I saw the + appear, it was within seconds of the pee going over the result area and I kept waiting for it to fade as it usually does on a HPT, to leave just the one line or no line at all - depending on what test you're using....Only it didn't fade. It got darker and it stayed put!!! My heart was pounding and my hands were shaking, I kept saying 'no, it can't be! NO WAY!!' and I walked from the bathroom and into the kitchen where the light was better but the test was still definitely positive. Straight away, I photographed it, I had to have proof of what I'd seen just incase it suddenly faded away completely, I also took a photo of it with our debit card in it to prove any doubters that it was me, my test and that I was pregnant and then I called my husband who was on his way home from his night shift and I cried 'I'm pregnant!' and in his usual nonchalant tone he replied 'well what are you crying for, this is what you've been working this hard for!' and I said 'I know, but I didn't expect it to actually happen!' I demanded he come straight home and not nip in the shops, I needed a neutral pair of eyes to confirm what I was seeing so as soon as he walked through the door, I thrust the test in his face and asked if he saw it and he replied that he did! I was pregnant, I was really, truly and honestly pregnant! Oh. My. God!!
Now to tell my IPs....How I had dreamt of this moment, I had thought about how I would send a balloon with the + test attached or I would text them the picture - all photoshopped with hearts around it or even that I would drive there and knock on the door and present them with the test. In reality, I called them straight away because telling them immediately was far more important that any fancier but slower way of telling them. Now, we hadn't text for a few days, I was feeling glum (see my last blog entry) and they didn't know what to say when they were probably feeling a bit deflated too at that point so we just left each other to the last few days of the 2ww so when I called and their phone just rang and rang, I had a horrible feeling that they didn't want to talk to me and were avoiding me, they would miss out on this fantastic moment. I was so relieved when I heard a voice at the other end of the phone and it cracks me up to remember this but there were some pleasantries to begin with 'how are you?' 'I'm good, and you?' 'Fine, I have some news for you!' 'Do you?' 'Yes, I'm pregnant!'
And then there were sniffles and shocked conversations as we tried to take this incredible news in together. It was lovely and I wouldn't of wanted it any other way, if I had done any of those things I had planned to do when I got a +, I would of missed out on hearing their reactions.
Texts flew between us, unable to quite believe what was happening to us and I sent them the picture of the test. I knew that there would be a little apprehension that it was a blue dye test (which are notorious for giving convincing looking false positives and evaps lines) and so I used a First Response Early Response and was very relieved to see an obvious 2nd line on that test too - which was swiftly sent to my IPs also!
Later in the day, I took a Clearblue Digital Conception Indicator test and it flashed up within minutes 'Pregnant - 1-2 weeks'. Wow, so I really am pregnant! We're really going to have a baby!
Some 3 days later and I still can't believe it, the lines are getting darker and the Clearblue Digital has already changed to 'Pregnant - 2-3 weeks' so it seems things are going along nicely although I still POAS daily, to use up my stash I say but secretly I love doing it too but I think it's safe to stop once these are gone. Double digits of + tests do not lie!
I never thought I would ever be posting a pregnant post on my blog, I was convinced that there was no way this would work after all this time of ttc and yet when I least expected it, it happened - isn't that always the way! I do not care how or why, all I know is that I and my wonderful IPs are finally going to realise a dream and reach our goal. I am absolutely over-the-moon!
It is very early days and both IPs and I are totally grounded until we hit the magical 2nd trimester with baby all safe and accounted for but we're not going to dwell on what will hopefully never happen and enjoy every day knowing I'm pregnant and looking forwards to the future.
I have had some pains that if it were my own child, I may be more relaxed about and wait and see but since my tubes are super important to me obviously as a surrogate and this isn't my child, I don't want to take any risks so had a quick visit to the Early Pregnancy Unit, after my GP referred me, but it's too early for a scan so I've had bloods taken and will get a 2nd taken Friday morning and they compare the 2 to rule out an ectopic pregnancy. I'm very confident that all is just fine but it'll be nice to have that extra reassurance. The midwife who saw me at the clinic was really interested in surrogacy and asked a ton of questions, I know I will have to get used to that. It's strange when people tell me I'm amazing or strong for doing this, I don't feel like I'm either - I'm fulfilling a dream and actually, I'm the lucky one to of been given this opportunity finally to make a family.
I also have booked in with the midwife, which seemed early but they get booked up and it's important you are seen before 12 weeks so they book you from the time you find out your pregnant - the appointment isn't for a while yet but it's nice to have something officially pregnancy related though!
So, there you go, my big news and I am so pleased I get to finally post it!
So, I did get my P4 result and it was an impressive 48 - we were thrilled, what an excellent level, compared to my usual 30 ish and made taking the horrible 150mgs of Clomid this cycle, worth it.
FF kept with its interpretation of my ovulation date, I continued to disagree with it and would stare at my chart several times a day trying to see why my date was more accurate than theirs and in the end, I figured that it didn't really matter which day was actually correct, it didn't change that we were finished with insems and were in the 2ww so I really shouldn't stress it. What I really ended up doing was manually over-riding the ovulation day on my chart, which seemed to make me feel happier when I looked at it! I don't recommend (nor does FF) doing this to your chart, unless you are familiar with your body and cycles and can be sure that you're right, you're best off sticking with what the software makes of your temps.
As I said, I've been really busy but was feeling awful towards the end of last week - palpitations, dizziness, boiling hot, exhausted, insomnia, heartburn, nauseous and I kept having headache after headache. I figured I was just really worn down. I continued to check my cervical position, just out of interest, I don't chart it in the 2ww any longer but I did note that it was really far back and either high or medium which isn't really anything to worry about but I felt that it was unusual for me. I also continued to use my IC OPKs during the 2ww, it gave me something to pee on for fun and for the most part, they were nearly blank but then towards the end of the 2ww, they darkened considerably - not positive type dark, but still darker than they had been. Now, I know from research and from my own previous experience that it means nothing. There is talk around the internet that a near + or + OPK can sometimes indicate early pregnancy but for everyone who says that is the case, there is another that says it didn't work like that for them so yes, I took it with a pinch of salt.
I also had some pregnancy tests left over from last cycle and I did my usual 'shall I test? No, I really shouldn't' inner conflict thing but I tested to be rid of the dreaded blue dye tests I had. I was either 7 or 9dpo so too early to see anything but I used it anyway. As usual, I thought I saw something but then it faded to pretty much nothing so I thought it was obviously just an evap but something made me keep going back to it - it's Clearblue +/- type pregnancy test and I swore I could see a really faint, but very thin, blue line making it a + sign. Now, I've had this before with these tests and I know that to be considered +, the line has to be as thick as the - line and this absolutely wasn't so I photographed it (to follow) as usual and binned it.
A couple of days passed and I had already told myself before the run in with the Clearblue test, that I wouldn't test until at least 11dpo because it's pretty much given you won't reliably get any + before then. And remember that I wasn't even sure if I would be 11dpo or 9, with my ambiguous ovulation date but on 11dpo (my calculated o date), I decided that I would take the other CB test because if by some miracle, that line I had thought I'd seen, had been a very early positive, the line should theoretically be darker 2 days later.
I POAS and watched, btw every cycle I swear I won't watch the test develop but will put my phone stop-clock on and go back once the 10 minutes or whatever testing time is up but I can never do it, I have to torture myself by watching the stark-white negative appear. But this time, I saw the + appear, it was within seconds of the pee going over the result area and I kept waiting for it to fade as it usually does on a HPT, to leave just the one line or no line at all - depending on what test you're using....Only it didn't fade. It got darker and it stayed put!!! My heart was pounding and my hands were shaking, I kept saying 'no, it can't be! NO WAY!!' and I walked from the bathroom and into the kitchen where the light was better but the test was still definitely positive. Straight away, I photographed it, I had to have proof of what I'd seen just incase it suddenly faded away completely, I also took a photo of it with our debit card in it to prove any doubters that it was me, my test and that I was pregnant and then I called my husband who was on his way home from his night shift and I cried 'I'm pregnant!' and in his usual nonchalant tone he replied 'well what are you crying for, this is what you've been working this hard for!' and I said 'I know, but I didn't expect it to actually happen!' I demanded he come straight home and not nip in the shops, I needed a neutral pair of eyes to confirm what I was seeing so as soon as he walked through the door, I thrust the test in his face and asked if he saw it and he replied that he did! I was pregnant, I was really, truly and honestly pregnant! Oh. My. God!!
Now to tell my IPs....How I had dreamt of this moment, I had thought about how I would send a balloon with the + test attached or I would text them the picture - all photoshopped with hearts around it or even that I would drive there and knock on the door and present them with the test. In reality, I called them straight away because telling them immediately was far more important that any fancier but slower way of telling them. Now, we hadn't text for a few days, I was feeling glum (see my last blog entry) and they didn't know what to say when they were probably feeling a bit deflated too at that point so we just left each other to the last few days of the 2ww so when I called and their phone just rang and rang, I had a horrible feeling that they didn't want to talk to me and were avoiding me, they would miss out on this fantastic moment. I was so relieved when I heard a voice at the other end of the phone and it cracks me up to remember this but there were some pleasantries to begin with 'how are you?' 'I'm good, and you?' 'Fine, I have some news for you!' 'Do you?' 'Yes, I'm pregnant!'
And then there were sniffles and shocked conversations as we tried to take this incredible news in together. It was lovely and I wouldn't of wanted it any other way, if I had done any of those things I had planned to do when I got a +, I would of missed out on hearing their reactions.
Texts flew between us, unable to quite believe what was happening to us and I sent them the picture of the test. I knew that there would be a little apprehension that it was a blue dye test (which are notorious for giving convincing looking false positives and evaps lines) and so I used a First Response Early Response and was very relieved to see an obvious 2nd line on that test too - which was swiftly sent to my IPs also!
Later in the day, I took a Clearblue Digital Conception Indicator test and it flashed up within minutes 'Pregnant - 1-2 weeks'. Wow, so I really am pregnant! We're really going to have a baby!
Some 3 days later and I still can't believe it, the lines are getting darker and the Clearblue Digital has already changed to 'Pregnant - 2-3 weeks' so it seems things are going along nicely although I still POAS daily, to use up my stash I say but secretly I love doing it too but I think it's safe to stop once these are gone. Double digits of + tests do not lie!
I never thought I would ever be posting a pregnant post on my blog, I was convinced that there was no way this would work after all this time of ttc and yet when I least expected it, it happened - isn't that always the way! I do not care how or why, all I know is that I and my wonderful IPs are finally going to realise a dream and reach our goal. I am absolutely over-the-moon!
It is very early days and both IPs and I are totally grounded until we hit the magical 2nd trimester with baby all safe and accounted for but we're not going to dwell on what will hopefully never happen and enjoy every day knowing I'm pregnant and looking forwards to the future.
I have had some pains that if it were my own child, I may be more relaxed about and wait and see but since my tubes are super important to me obviously as a surrogate and this isn't my child, I don't want to take any risks so had a quick visit to the Early Pregnancy Unit, after my GP referred me, but it's too early for a scan so I've had bloods taken and will get a 2nd taken Friday morning and they compare the 2 to rule out an ectopic pregnancy. I'm very confident that all is just fine but it'll be nice to have that extra reassurance. The midwife who saw me at the clinic was really interested in surrogacy and asked a ton of questions, I know I will have to get used to that. It's strange when people tell me I'm amazing or strong for doing this, I don't feel like I'm either - I'm fulfilling a dream and actually, I'm the lucky one to of been given this opportunity finally to make a family.
I also have booked in with the midwife, which seemed early but they get booked up and it's important you are seen before 12 weeks so they book you from the time you find out your pregnant - the appointment isn't for a while yet but it's nice to have something officially pregnancy related though!
So, there you go, my big news and I am so pleased I get to finally post it!
Tuesday 17 April 2012
Thumbs Down
Usually by this point in my cycle, I'm still feeling good - impatient but optimistic. This cycle however, not so much. I just think I'm pretty fed up of the whole surrogacy thing really. I sometimes get a bit blah during the 2ww but I just feel a bit more so this time. It doesn't help that I'll be 3 cycles post-HSG, when you're supposedly more fertile and likely to fall pregnant. It doesn't help that I'll be 3 months into Clomid, the timeframe it's supposed to be successful within, if it's going to be. Nor does it help that if I don't get pregnant this cycle, I will not have a baby this year - another year will pass and I will still be an unsuccessful surrogate. Blah indeed.
So moving on, I upped my dose and with that came the risk of it altering my ovulation date, which might of actually happened. FF can't make up its mind, I had 2 days of + opks, which is totally normal for me but my temperature has it confused and it altered my ovulation date a few days back. I don't agree with it and I think after this many cycles, I'm probably more in tune with my body than some software programme but it still annoyed me, the 2ww is stressful enough without having your dpo messed up by changing ovulation dates. Regardless of which ovulation date is correct, we still have a chance but it does make you question if those odds have gone down, if FF dates are actually right.
And for some reason, Instead Cups are not working as well for me either, no reason why, I'm not doing anything differently, but I felt that there was perhaps more, ahem, spillage this cycle. It's a hazard, I think most women have the same problem and it only takes the one but it's still annoying when you worry you've lost any! We did try the syringe method last cycle and I just don't like it or see it can be any better over cups.
It was also school holiday time here and I realised that my mood during insems and the 2ww is impacting on my home life and that makes me feel like shit. I mean, I signed up for this, not my children so for me to be anything other than normal, happy, fun Mum, is not fair. I really need to get a grip on things, after all I don't have many more months and I don't want it to be a big slog and have anything other than good memories, regardless of the outcome. I think though, in fairness, I have a lot of other stuff going on too and it's all come together at the same time so it's not just surrogacy stuff that is bothering me alone.
I also have pregnancy test envy, if I have to look at another + test, my expensive, sparkly new laptop may need the equally as expensive insurance I took out on it sooner than it thought - I kid, well mostly. It's my own fault, I really should just stop. looking at sites, yeah, that might help. I swear every single cycle that I will not look at my own chart 10 times a day - what am I expecting to see since I put my temp in that morning? I swear I will not look at a pregnancy test site - is it going to increase my chances of seeing a + test, yeah right, if it did, I would of been pregnant month 1! It's addictive though and I'm betting most people ttc can sympathise, it's like you lose the sensible, mature, logical part of your brain for those 2ww. And it can't help can it so why I do it, I just don't know!
Which brings me onto something my IP told me they had seen on the web, 'The 10 Commandments of the 2ww', made me giggle so thought I'd share:
The Ten Commandments of the 2 ww
So moving on, I upped my dose and with that came the risk of it altering my ovulation date, which might of actually happened. FF can't make up its mind, I had 2 days of + opks, which is totally normal for me but my temperature has it confused and it altered my ovulation date a few days back. I don't agree with it and I think after this many cycles, I'm probably more in tune with my body than some software programme but it still annoyed me, the 2ww is stressful enough without having your dpo messed up by changing ovulation dates. Regardless of which ovulation date is correct, we still have a chance but it does make you question if those odds have gone down, if FF dates are actually right.
And for some reason, Instead Cups are not working as well for me either, no reason why, I'm not doing anything differently, but I felt that there was perhaps more, ahem, spillage this cycle. It's a hazard, I think most women have the same problem and it only takes the one but it's still annoying when you worry you've lost any! We did try the syringe method last cycle and I just don't like it or see it can be any better over cups.
It was also school holiday time here and I realised that my mood during insems and the 2ww is impacting on my home life and that makes me feel like shit. I mean, I signed up for this, not my children so for me to be anything other than normal, happy, fun Mum, is not fair. I really need to get a grip on things, after all I don't have many more months and I don't want it to be a big slog and have anything other than good memories, regardless of the outcome. I think though, in fairness, I have a lot of other stuff going on too and it's all come together at the same time so it's not just surrogacy stuff that is bothering me alone.
I also have pregnancy test envy, if I have to look at another + test, my expensive, sparkly new laptop may need the equally as expensive insurance I took out on it sooner than it thought - I kid, well mostly. It's my own fault, I really should just stop. looking at sites, yeah, that might help. I swear every single cycle that I will not look at my own chart 10 times a day - what am I expecting to see since I put my temp in that morning? I swear I will not look at a pregnancy test site - is it going to increase my chances of seeing a + test, yeah right, if it did, I would of been pregnant month 1! It's addictive though and I'm betting most people ttc can sympathise, it's like you lose the sensible, mature, logical part of your brain for those 2ww. And it can't help can it so why I do it, I just don't know!
Which brings me onto something my IP told me they had seen on the web, 'The 10 Commandments of the 2ww', made me giggle so thought I'd share:
The Ten Commandments of the 2 ww
- Thou shalt not pee on a stick obsessively, or at all, until at least 14 days past O.
- Thou shalt not stalk pregnancy bbt chart websites.
- Thou shalt not calculate the due date of a still-fictitious baby.
- Remember your husband, and connect with him daily.
- Honor your body and pamper it at least once a day.
- Thou shalt not kill others’ spirits with your words no matter how good it might feel.
- Thou shalt not commit internet-adultery (ignoring your spouse for the sake of your online IF-life).
- Thou shalt not steal other IF blogger’s posts, despite a total lack of ability to concentrate and come up with good posts of your own.
- Thou shalt not lie about your feelings just for the sake of making others feel better.
- Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor’s ovaries, uterus, tubes, sperm or children.
Friday 6 April 2012
It's Getting Hot In Here!
Hot flush hell here! I'm now 3 days out from the end of Clomid and they are as intense as ever! They are particularly bad at night, I lie there in front of the fan, no covers on and still feel like I want to jump into a bath full of ice - trouble with hot flushes is that they are internal and no amount of attempts to cool yourself down work. Still, could be worse I guess, it's just annoying.
As for how I got on with the 150mg dose this cycle, well pretty good surprisingly. I had much more noticeable side effects but maybe I just dealt with them better as I managed. I felt nauseous the entire 5 days - all day type stuff, had headaches, moodiness, dizziness that would have me grabbing the nearest static object (or person!) and my vision was a bit weird the first couple of days but thankfully that did settle.
Looking forward to insems next week, it comes around so fast. Not trying anything new this cycle, apart from the increased Clomid so there will be little to report on that front. It's a long Bank Holiday weekend here so I'm making the most of the lovely weather and spending lots of time outside with the kids and my IPs are hoping to see the kids next week when they are here, which will be nice.
Next post will probably be the result of my P4 test, very interested in what the result will be on this increased dose.
I realised that I haven't spoken much about our imminent move up North recently so I will talk more about that soon.
As for how I got on with the 150mg dose this cycle, well pretty good surprisingly. I had much more noticeable side effects but maybe I just dealt with them better as I managed. I felt nauseous the entire 5 days - all day type stuff, had headaches, moodiness, dizziness that would have me grabbing the nearest static object (or person!) and my vision was a bit weird the first couple of days but thankfully that did settle.
Looking forward to insems next week, it comes around so fast. Not trying anything new this cycle, apart from the increased Clomid so there will be little to report on that front. It's a long Bank Holiday weekend here so I'm making the most of the lovely weather and spending lots of time outside with the kids and my IPs are hoping to see the kids next week when they are here, which will be nice.
Next post will probably be the result of my P4 test, very interested in what the result will be on this increased dose.
I realised that I haven't spoken much about our imminent move up North recently so I will talk more about that soon.
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