There just hasn't been much to report.
I'm currently on CD11, OPK testing began today. I am stocked up with digi tests and some cheap ones and we're off on the rollercoaster once again.
My IPs are dealing with a family member seriously ill in hospital and so contact has been minimal the past week but we're managing to keep up via text and then by e-mail when we can. I'm also busy with the final week of the school holidays though so I'm proabably as distant with communication as they are. No problem though, we understand one another well enough for it to be fine.
Barr anything terrible happening to the relative, we'll be seeing one another in less than a week. IP's won't be staying here as they are needed close to home obviously but we're used to things now so that won't present a problem.
Oh and I must throw out a 'hello' and a wave to my IPs who are now reading this blog. I finally got around to telling IM and giving them the link. Apparently IF had thought he should write one with a catchy title (I won't embarass him by saying it here) and I definitely encouraged him to do it. Surrogacy is still such an underground thing that publicity, of the good kind, mind, can only be a positive thing so, J, get those fingers a'tappin'!
Tuesday 31 August 2010
Saturday 21 August 2010
AF
The AF eagle has landed.
Cycle 1: Length: 27 and LP: 11
Cycle 2: Length: 33 and LP: 10 (very ill so late ovulation)
Cycle 3: Length: 26 and LP: 10
Cycle 4: Length: 26 (annovulatory cycle probably)
Cycle 1: Length: 27 and LP: 11
Cycle 2: Length: 33 and LP: 10 (very ill so late ovulation)
Cycle 3: Length: 26 and LP: 10
Cycle 4: Length: 26 (annovulatory cycle probably)
Friday 20 August 2010
CD26
And still nothing. I wanted to show you how many test sticks I've got through this cycle, I began testing on CD12. Down to only 4 tests left and we won't be buying any more this cycle.
Where you see (if you can since my scribble is so illegible!) the circle with the - inside, I used a digi to confirm it wasn't positive.
Seems a lot of surrogate friends have had crazy cycles/ovulation this month, maybe it's a high tide or a full moon or some New Age bullshit that's to blame? LOL.
Now I'm desperate for AF to show so we can draw a line under this and start afresh for cycle #4.
Saturday 14 August 2010
Gushing
We had a wonderful day together, IPs and I. They are on holiday as I've said and plans to eat out were thrown into disarray last night when my middle child decided to throw up and I wasn't sure if she'd be well enough to travel or if we would even be able to leave her to meet up. Luckily it was a very short one off thing.
My IPs invited us to their holiday accommodation which was very sweet and even more so considering their 2 cats were with them and I was worried my noisy children would scare the poor creatures.
Whilst my hubby, IF and the children took a look around the holiday site, a working flour mill nonetheless, IM and I sat and over coffee, talked quite a bit. Usually we only have time for superficial chat between insems and with me having to rush back to my life but today we took the time to talk a bit deeper, especially about surrogacy stuff. I was able to ask some questions that had been on my mind and I think IM had the chance to do the same and gain more reassurance about our journey. It was just, well, lovely.
We went out for dinner and my children love them like they've been part of our family for a lot longer than they have.
We returned to the cottage for a final coffee, where IM sat cross legged on the floor playing various games with my children. The same children who have the attention span of, well, a 4 and 6 year old (the baby was with Nanny at home for this visit), were enthralled whilst IM taught them how to play dominoes properly and Snap and then finished it off with playing with some Fuzzy Felt (if you're a child of the 80's, you'll know what that is!) It just made me even more determined to make my IPs dream come true. These people were destined to be parents.
Finished off our visit with my hubby and IF getting really deep into discussion where I felt boundaries, on both sides, were broken a little and both moved onto another level of comfort with each other, which was really great to see. It can be tough on the men involved in surrogacy, it's not just the hormonal women who can struggle with the situation.
We left with big smiles and lots of big hugs, still no sign of ovulation but feeling confident that it will be within the next week which means another visit with these wonderful people. I can't wait! I needed today.
My IPs invited us to their holiday accommodation which was very sweet and even more so considering their 2 cats were with them and I was worried my noisy children would scare the poor creatures.
Whilst my hubby, IF and the children took a look around the holiday site, a working flour mill nonetheless, IM and I sat and over coffee, talked quite a bit. Usually we only have time for superficial chat between insems and with me having to rush back to my life but today we took the time to talk a bit deeper, especially about surrogacy stuff. I was able to ask some questions that had been on my mind and I think IM had the chance to do the same and gain more reassurance about our journey. It was just, well, lovely.
We went out for dinner and my children love them like they've been part of our family for a lot longer than they have.
We returned to the cottage for a final coffee, where IM sat cross legged on the floor playing various games with my children. The same children who have the attention span of, well, a 4 and 6 year old (the baby was with Nanny at home for this visit), were enthralled whilst IM taught them how to play dominoes properly and Snap and then finished it off with playing with some Fuzzy Felt (if you're a child of the 80's, you'll know what that is!) It just made me even more determined to make my IPs dream come true. These people were destined to be parents.
Finished off our visit with my hubby and IF getting really deep into discussion where I felt boundaries, on both sides, were broken a little and both moved onto another level of comfort with each other, which was really great to see. It can be tough on the men involved in surrogacy, it's not just the hormonal women who can struggle with the situation.
We left with big smiles and lots of big hugs, still no sign of ovulation but feeling confident that it will be within the next week which means another visit with these wonderful people. I can't wait! I needed today.
Thursday 12 August 2010
Still Waiting
Feeling a bit blue about it if I'm honest although it's not all due to surrogacy/late ovulation stuff but still. Blah.
My promising OPK's are now crystal clear negative. Infact, I swear the evening's one that I just took had an evap line. LOL. Now it's just playing with me!
Weird how it happens that you get so close and then go back to square 1. No wonder my body has decided not to play ball though, I realise I've got a sensitive system as this often happens when I'm super stressed out. And yes, I know in that case, I should chill but easier said than done.
So, we wait a bit longer. I had to order some more tests myself since it's obviously going to be a long cycle. So hoping they turn up before I run out or else I'll be popping to the shops to splash a ton of IP's cash buying some digital ones to see me through.
One thing I read about OPK's on one site selling them was that you can consider a test line that's *almost* as dark as the control line, as a positive. Since when?! That's not what every other site says and if it's true then good job I backed up the almost tests with the digital to confirm they were a true negative. Some sites just make you paranoid I swear.
Anyway moving on, feels odd that I thought I'd be in the 2ww by now and I'm not. I'm seeing IPs on Saturday, we're meeting at a city farm for a picnic with my children, looking forward to that but it would be even better if I ovulate before then so that's done and dusted and we can all just relax for another cycle.
IPs didn't want to do an insem regardless of whether we get the + or not in the end this week, before they head home on Sunday, which I felt was a bit of a wasted opportunity. They are so few and far between, we really should be snapping them up but that's not for me to decide or push the point. I offered and that's all I can do and I'm fine with whatever decision they come to.
Hopefully my next post will be to say we're on the 4th 2ww.
My promising OPK's are now crystal clear negative. Infact, I swear the evening's one that I just took had an evap line. LOL. Now it's just playing with me!
Weird how it happens that you get so close and then go back to square 1. No wonder my body has decided not to play ball though, I realise I've got a sensitive system as this often happens when I'm super stressed out. And yes, I know in that case, I should chill but easier said than done.
So, we wait a bit longer. I had to order some more tests myself since it's obviously going to be a long cycle. So hoping they turn up before I run out or else I'll be popping to the shops to splash a ton of IP's cash buying some digital ones to see me through.
One thing I read about OPK's on one site selling them was that you can consider a test line that's *almost* as dark as the control line, as a positive. Since when?! That's not what every other site says and if it's true then good job I backed up the almost tests with the digital to confirm they were a true negative. Some sites just make you paranoid I swear.
Anyway moving on, feels odd that I thought I'd be in the 2ww by now and I'm not. I'm seeing IPs on Saturday, we're meeting at a city farm for a picnic with my children, looking forward to that but it would be even better if I ovulate before then so that's done and dusted and we can all just relax for another cycle.
IPs didn't want to do an insem regardless of whether we get the + or not in the end this week, before they head home on Sunday, which I felt was a bit of a wasted opportunity. They are so few and far between, we really should be snapping them up but that's not for me to decide or push the point. I offered and that's all I can do and I'm fine with whatever decision they come to.
Hopefully my next post will be to say we're on the 4th 2ww.
Tuesday 10 August 2010
CD16
My usual day and yet still no ovulation.
My tests are showing encouraging signs, heading towards it but nothing concrete yet. IPs are away on holiday and my stash of OPK's is getting low. I've enough for about another 3 days so may end up purchasing more myself and being reimbursed. No big deal though.
When I get a close to + looking test, I back it up with a digital one but feel a bit guilty wasting them when it confirms the negative. Those things aren't cheap!
IPs are in my neck of the woods for about another 5 days so we're all hoping that I get the positive before they return or else that would be seriously annoying.
I'm pretty stressed out with things here so it wouldn't surprise me if ovulation were to be delayed. I've tried to chill as much as possible but Mother Nature has a mind of her own despite best intentions.
My tests are showing encouraging signs, heading towards it but nothing concrete yet. IPs are away on holiday and my stash of OPK's is getting low. I've enough for about another 3 days so may end up purchasing more myself and being reimbursed. No big deal though.
When I get a close to + looking test, I back it up with a digital one but feel a bit guilty wasting them when it confirms the negative. Those things aren't cheap!
IPs are in my neck of the woods for about another 5 days so we're all hoping that I get the positive before they return or else that would be seriously annoying.
I'm pretty stressed out with things here so it wouldn't surprise me if ovulation were to be delayed. I've tried to chill as much as possible but Mother Nature has a mind of her own despite best intentions.
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