At this end of this pregnancy week, we'll be into our 3rd and final trimester! I am so excited, I can't explain what it feels like to have reached this point in my surrogacy journey. I keep smiling to myself when I think of exactly what I'm doing and how close we all are to meeting Boo and to making K & B complete - just absolutely amazing. I'm pretty awesome, even if I say so myself. ;o)
I'm feeling good overall, just the usual things that continue to rumble on but I really don't mind - I so love being pregnant and for such a fantastic and worthwhile reason makes it all the more manageable. It's not all sunshine and roses, when I am awoken every hour to go to the bathroom or I can hardly lift my head off the pillow in the morning but in the grand scheme of things, it doesn't really matter that much after all.
The boys have gone away for a week, a last holiday as a couple and to recharge their batteries, both have been working like Trojans to pay for the journey and all the expense that having a baby brings. They've done themselves proud and they certainly deserve their break away. And it's their wedding anniversary coming up - see boys, I notice these things - pregnancy brain didn't steal that one!
Next week, we're all heading to London to have a private 4D scan - at a Harley Street clinic no less! Bit of a trek and I'm not relishing having to negotiate 2 trains, one being the underground but it'll be worth it to see Boo after 7 weeks and see how much he's grown. I wonder what the clinic will make of us and our situation but I'm used to the open mouths and usual questions though, I almost enjoy watching how people react and explaining what we're doing and I seem to have yet to experience any personal negativity really which is nice.
It is funny how people ask the same questions and say the same things though:
'What does your husband think about it? Is he OK?
'How can you hand a baby over?'
'That's amazing, I could never do it!'
'Are they friends of yours?'
'You're amazing/an angel/so selfless'
'Don't you feel anything towards the baby?'
'Are you going to stay in touch afterwards?'
Also next week, I have my glucose tolerance test, I know I will pass because my husband has diabetes so I use his blood sugar monitor from time to time to keep an eye on my levels and they've been perfect every time. Not sure how I'll feel drinking 500mls of pure sugar at 10am and on an empty stomach, especially with my nausea but it's a one off and will be worth doing to get the official all-clear. It also helps my possible home birth plans because it rules out, to some extent, having an overly large baby.
I expect to also have the whooping cough vaccination at my next midwife appointment the following week. There is an outbreak here and the health agency have advised all pregnant women 28-32 weeks have it, more to protect the newborn as there seems to be an issue with newborns catching it before they have a chance to have their first whopping cough vaccination. I have never had a problem with vaccinations, for myself or my own children but it's really up to my IPs because it will affect (albeit in a good way) their child but I do see it as an extension of my 'job' as a surrogate, to keep the baby safe and well.
If you're UK based and reading this and don't know what the advice is, read here:
http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/pregnancy-and-baby/Pages/whooping-cough-vaccination-pregnant.aspx
My children are growing more curious and excited about the baby too - my oldest likes to put his hand on my tummy and see if he can feel Boo move and my middle child asks when the baby is going to be born quite often now. They ask how big Boo is currently and how he's developing each week, it's very sweet and I'm so pleased that they've not shown any negativity towards me being pregnant for someone else. I hope that it continues that way because they have always been my main concern throughout the surrogacy journey.
I was going to talk about the bitchy and negative vibe lately on surrogacy boards across the internet, mainly FB but not exclusively, but then I figured that actually since deleting myself from every board and being selective about who I'm friends with from the scene, I don't really care so much! Something to be said about keeping myself to myself - I don't need to be dealing with people who really have no place to talk and no place to be making surrogacy look anything other than a fantastic thing, by their actions. Who knew that being a grown up and making a special baby didn't require maturity or morals for some? I canNOT stand stupid at the best of times but it seems even less so currently or maybe it really is more prevelant than ever?
On that rather vague note, I'll sign off here but will be back next week to update on the 2 appointments and hopefully with pictures!
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